
I just came back from church camp, even though the place wasn't exceptionally nice nor classy, I thank God for it. For it was being away from
Internet and
hygienic places that made me appreciate them more. The physical needs put aside, I think I drew closer to God after this camp, I learnt quite a bit from the sermons even though it seems that I might not be paying attention. It made me appreciate the physical bible a lot more. I'm not sure why though..
haha..
Serenity does feel like a fleeting part of my life, floating in and out whenever it feels like. I was trying to figure about something about someone. Sometimes, it seems I have it all figured out and then you do something that makes me crazy about you. I'm not sure why I trust you. But with you around, talking to you, messaging you makes me feel that everything is going to turn out fine.
Another troubling matter I had to settle is the Anglican diocese youth camp. Because of sudden changes, last minute updates and me procrastinating, we are all rushing to settle everything. It feels so screwed up but I'm gonna pray to God that everything is going to turn out fine:)
Drawing and painting a lot now.. Everytime I try to paint something serene, it turns into troubledness. Deeper thoughts flow a lot more now.. it feels like every painting/ drawing is a self-portrait. Because it is after all a reflection of how I perceive things.
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